concert!!!

Today's the day! I'm so excited! I am going to see VNV Nation tonight! If you don't know them you should TOTALLY check them out! They are frigging awesome!
http://www.vnvnation.com/

Once upon a time...

Once, a long (or not so long) time ago there was a little (or not so little) girl who thought that there were many things that she would like to do, only she couldn't. She convinced herself that she wasn't intelligent enough, talented enough, or special enough to do any of these things. Time went on, and she discovered that she was unhappy, so she set about changing her life. After graduating from nursing school it has become apparent to me that I can do anything that I set my mind to. That being said, I have decided how to spend my little fortune...only I'm not going to tell you. I'm going to show you when it arrives in the mail.

little rant

Aaarg! How come all the musicians I love use frigging impossible tuning!? I have broken yet another bloody string!

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After a week of night shift I am trying unsuccessfully to rejoin the land of the living. My head feels like it's wrapped in cotton. Blearg.

Reply to spacemaurader

I'm ahead of you on that one. I already have that book. I recommend it. My favorite sheep is the one who eats all the time!

How should I spend my new found wealth?

So I recently discovered that I am going to be coming into a wee bit of money that I hadn't counted on. It's always lovely to have unexpected money, and I am sure that the responsible thing would be to put it entirely on my student loan and pretend that I never knew about it. That would be the responsible thing to do...but it's also boring, and no fun at all. So I dug out my list o' lovely things to buy. Even if I only put half of this money onto my debt that still gives me a good 550$ to play with. You can do a lot of playing for 550$. So what toy should I treat myself to? CDs? Books? Or something more extravagant?

I knew it!

You ever have helpful people tell you not to be so negative? They say things like "Tell yourself all the wonderful things about yourself, and you'll feel better!" What a load of bull. If I went around saying "I am loved, I am smart, I am beautiful" I would kill myself within a week. I know that I am not beautiful, there are many people who are smarter than me - I mean I have yet to come up with a vaccine for AIDS or a cure for cancer, and yeah, some people love me, but most people on this planet couldn't give a shit. So, saying something so untrue would only make me feel WORSE about myself. This is something that generally happy people have never been able to understand. I always think "dude, why are you lying to yourself?" Ignoring that bad things happen, that people suffer and die every day, that you are insignificant doesn't make any of it go away. I would rather not lie to myself. There is a new study out that confirms what I have always thought about all this positive self talk crap - it's useless. It only helps people who have "high self-esteem" (ie; are therefore pretty good at deluding themselves, and ignoring the fact that bad things happen without rhyme or reason every day), it only makes the rest of us, (the realists) more depressed. I know that a lot of people reading this will not identify with me saying that a statement like "I accept myself completely" makes me want to hurl myself off of a bridge. Thankfully some researchers have finally clued in that this is not helpful to some people, it is in fact harmful. Now hopefully this information will trickle down to all the would-be do-gooders and nosy-parkers who feel that I should be more positive. To read more about this go to:
http://news.bbc.co.uk/2/hi/health/8132857.stm